Calm down...

...well, I am calming down. With a slight flurry of thoughts, passing in little frames and snippets of what would and could be, and catapulting ahead with nothing in between, earlier, that is :-).

I'm gearing into reframing my mind, rethinking thoughts I had for the past few days, giggling at funny moments and scowling at absurd situations. Funny how the mind works, and with an imagination as vivid as mine, I see my Ally McBeal moments.

So, what did I actually do to calm myself down? I dived into my fears, looked at the many facets of my life, all the nooks and crannies and pockets of dark and lit areas. I made a decision, and have comfortably settled by coining it as pragmatism and put it in a course of plans to be eventually transferred to actions.

My to-do list...dive back to reading, gear up for academic writing and do something academic soon. It's about time. My excuse? Well, it's just 1.5 years post-treatment, so another 1.5 to come out of being high-risk, then add another 2 years for an all-clear. Roughly I'm looking at signing up for the continuation of my further education.

That is my procrastination, at least it calmed me down a wee bit.